We Were Here

I can't stand that who I am spend my time with is being decided by someone that hasn't been in my life for close to two years,
you're no longer my friend
but you still have an impact on my life
in the most negative fucking way.
I can't stand your life.
I can can't stand that right now you are breathing good air, probably thinking about her.
She is a brighter soul than you could ever be.
And one day she will realize this,
I hope that one day she will see this.

yesterday,

I was ready to fall down and pass out all day. I had 5 hours of sleep of because of registration and then we had band practice.
It was all fun, except for the end of registration. God she is such a bitch and all of her friends laugh like jackals. I just started shaking with rage while typing this. It's bad.
but I went to bed at around 11:30, first time in like a month, ha.

Practice went well. Our original drummer left us hanging, so Joel, our would be second guitarist took over on drums. Then we had to search through Whittier or wherever the hell we were for the studio.
But we finally found it, and we finally got our sound down. And we got a solid song and an intro done. Don't know what we are going to use the intro for yet, but, it sounds good. We were all super stoked with what we made.

Pikul

I'm pretty tired, this sleep schedule have isn't working out very well and it makes waking up for work even harder.
I put on Silversun Pickups just for fun. I forgot I like this band. If you havn't already, you should look them up. Im sure eveyrone's heard Lazy Eye on the radio 78,093,676 times but Pikul is a powerful album.
All today I havn't known what I'm supposed to be feeling. I just got a lot of things off of my chest, It just feels unnatural. I can't remember the last time I wasn't carrying carrying such wieght.
I feel a strong pang for the girl I hurt, and I feel some sort of pride(?) for standing up for myself.
But I cleared a lot of air with an old friend, and we talked about everything that has happened between us and in our personal lives. It felt nice, to have someone to talk to, I mean love my friends, but you can never have enough close friends by your side.

here's something else you should look up



goodnight.

"im losing sleep, im losing friends.."

this is new.

I'm cutting ties
I'm losing
shoulders to cry on
I'm shuddering in the dark